I should have updated this on Thursday, the day I actually finished it, but I have been lazy and enjoying my time off work instead. Slacking, you know.
I’ve officially verified my 5th win at NaNoWriMo. I donated. I bought the t-shirt. I’ve finally slept. I love November.
I have not been posting here about NaNoWriMo, and I should have. I have been tracking my progress and while I am ahead of the curve, I’m not anywhere near where I was in years past. I’m feeling quite badly, but then again, I always do this time of year. But I’m getting an ache inside, which I’ve felt in the past, is different this time.
Well, back to the word grind. I need about 6k words asap.
McCain concedes, Obama wins.
The Senate and the House also have a Dem majority.
The long night has begun. So either this is just an interlude in history, or it truly is the beginning of the end.
Many are jumping with delight, clapping with joy. I sit here with tears falling.
May God carry us through this.
Normally, exercises in prayer I keep to myself. To get to the short of the matter, I have used prayer to get past anger problems. I prayed with charitable thoughts towards someone I was deeply angry with. I admit that the charitable thoughts were forced at first. I didn’t want to be nice to this person, even in my thoughts. But after a while, it got better. I got less angry. I got so far as to be indifferent. Even now, though it feels a little like pity, I have a sad hope that something good will yet come of this person’s life and those of his family.
In this somewhere, I began to hate myself a little less too. For being so angry. For hating. For not being able to let go.
I began to forgive myself.
And the guilt began to fade.
Then, I realized, I was forgiven.
Capitalism. Don’t forget about capitalism. That’s how these things with banks are supposed to work. What happened to WaMu, with JPMorgan Chase buying them out, that’s how capitalism works. You don’t give money away, you buy things with it. Like banks buying banks. Capitalism at work. And that makes me proud.
I’ve found there are four groups of people vocal in the bail out news. 1- Those who want it very badly. 2 - Those who don’t want it at all. 3 - Those who have no clue what it’s all about. 4 - Those who understand and yet can’t convince anyone of anything. Guess where I fall.
